heck

2006-03-18T00:59:00.000-08:00

Now That She’s Gone
Music and Lyrics by J.J Lin

Girl you know I miss you so
I didn’t know you had to go
You’ve had enough of our distance baby

Before I had the chance to say
I’m staying with you
For the rest of my life

Don’t keep telling me these words
You don’t know how much it hurts
And I’ll promise you eternity
If you promise me your stay
But now it’s too late
I’m no longer the man that I was

I will go on without her
Like a fool who’s too sure
I’m like a bird who’s lost her wing
A fire without its flame

I don’t know how to be strong
When my love has to move on
I am a song without a soul
Now that she’s gone
What’s left of us is this song

This is our song without a soul
Now that you’re gone
What’s left of us in this song

2006-01-20T19:54:00.000-08:00

i'm so screwed i dunno wad to say.
why can't i just be happy?
i'm so screwed.

2005-12-25T08:51:00.000-08:00

disappointment.

YAYYY!!!

2005-10-31T20:58:00.000-08:00

oh yes.
chinese Os FINALLY over.
but i still don't get the feeling lehhs..
hehhs.
anyway.
going to xi an tmr!
early in the morn at 6.30am.
very good.
freaking damn early.
hmm.
i'm excited.
XD
hahas. yupp.
anyway. i've finally updated.
yes.
hahhahas.
aiyah. whatever.
i feel like posting songs. hahas. so fun!
yupp. ciao everyone.

xi an. with you.

2005-10-31T20:55:00.000-08:00

More Than Words
by Westlife

Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
It's not that I don't want you
Not to say it, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know

What would you do
If my heart was torn in two,
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say
If I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you

Now that I've tried to talk to you
and make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands and touch me
Hold me close don't ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know

What would you do
If my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say
If I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you

2005-09-20T20:57:00.000-07:00

jealousy.

2005-08-26T23:12:00.000-07:00

I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight

And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

How could this happen to me?
I've made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me?

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold on
On to a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't

How could this happen to me?
I've made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me?

I've made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me?

shut up.

2005-08-25T23:53:00.000-07:00

There you go
You're always so right
It's all a big show
It's all about you

You think you know
What everyone needs
You always take time
To criticize me

It seems like everyday
I make mistakes
I just can't get it right
It's like I'm the one
You love to hate
But not today

So shut up, shut up, shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my way
Step up, step up, step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down

There you go
You never ask why
It's all a big lie
Whatever you do

You think you're special
But I know and I know and I know
and we know
That you're not

You're always there to point out my mistakes
And shove them in my face
It's like I'm the one
You love to hate
But not today

So shut up, shut up, shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my way
Step up, step up, step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down
(shut up, shut up, shut up)
Is gonna bring me down
(shut up, shut up, shut up)
You'll never bring me down

Don't tell me who I should be (Don't tell me who I should be)
And don't try to tell me what's right for me
Don't tell me what I should do
I don't wanna waste my time
I'll watch you fade away

So shut up, shut up, shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my way
Step up, step up, step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down

Shut up, shut up, shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my way
Step up, step up, step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say
Is gonna bring me down

Bring me down
(shut up, shut up, shut up)
You won't bring me down
Bring me down
(shut up, shut up, shut up)
You won't bring me down

Shut up, shut up, shut up.
get it, brat? i said shut up.

dammit

2005-08-25T20:43:00.000-07:00

dammit dammit dammit dammit dammit dammit dammit dammit dammit dammit dammit dammit dammit dammit dammit dammit dammit.

i hate this.

pissed

2005-08-25T20:10:00.000-07:00

im very very depressed at the moment.
my world is falling apart.
im SO irritated.
i think i'm losing it.

my dearest dad.
you don't have to tell me THREE FREAKING TIMES to help my mum.
thank you.

IM FREAKING IRRITATED.

..

2005-08-15T21:41:00.000-07:00

umm. yes. stopped blogging for a VERY long time.
yupp. hahas. found out how entertaining it is to read juniors' blogs..
it IS really entertaining.. hahahas. XD
hmm. i really really think pt isn't tough AT ALL.
must must bring up the standard.
MUST!
hahas. going mad.
ey sec ones! blog mre abt me lehh. XD
hahas. den got stuff to read. okay ignore that too.
school is really getting VERY stressful.
tests are.. bad.
BAD BAD BAD.
and i realise it's time to change my blog layout cos yes now i think it sucks.
eh dun wu hui.. it's not that i dun like jj.. but yes. it's so not me.
hmm. time really flies.
i dun wan all this to go past so quickly..
hehhs. im still really surprised at how much the sec ones know abt us..
like wows. im impressed.
anyway.
i miss somebody
dun feel like blogging le.
ciao.

..

2005-07-17T18:23:00.000-07:00

there's something you're not telling me.
i know it.

haiya. so stupid.
i can't stand myself.
maybe i wasn't meant for you. at all.
half blood prince is a nice book, by far.
i think suck to the core la.
what the shit.
bleah.

:)

2005-07-13T09:14:00.000-07:00

Because You Live - Jesse McCartney

Staring out at the rain with a heavy heart
It's the end of the world in my mind
Then your voice pulls me back
Like a wake-up call

I've been looking for the answer
Somewhere
I couldn't see that it was right there
But now I know, what I didn't know

[Chorus]
Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself
When nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky

It's all right, I survived, I'm alive again
Cause of you, made it through every storm
What is life, what's the use
If you're killing time

I'm so glad I found an angel
Someone who was there when all my hopes fell
I wanna fly, looking in your eyes

[Chorus]
Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself
When nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky

Because you live, I live

Because you live, there's a reason why
I carry on when I lose the fight
I want to give what you've given me
Always

[Chorus]
Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself
When nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself
When nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has everything I need to survive
Because you live, I live, I live

le bleu attribue.

2005-07-10T22:29:00.000-07:00

OMG! i got PT NCO!
whoohoo!
i rock man!
hahas
sorry sorry..
over ji dong..
but yes..
yay!
hahas
can't wait till first cca..
muahahaha! orh horr.. pt you all DIE...
hahas.
no la.. i'll try not to be so harsh..
XD
try..
the whole thing was damn funny lahh..
and i din cry..
(:

WE hey, don't cry.
ROCKED you know when you cry it makes me feel so.. so..
LIKE useless and vulnerable?
HELL when you cry i can't do anything about it.
! so please.. don't cry.

if tmr never comes~

2005-06-26T15:55:00.000-07:00

hahas. if tmr never comes i would be damn happy.
there's an mep test on the first day of school for god's sake!
this totally sucks.
:
qi hang was great!
really rocked.
good job hua hui pple!
hahas
yupp that's all.
shall go back and do my 'mountain' of work.
bleah

removal of virus.

2005-06-24T00:23:00.000-07:00

okay people i removed the thing that keeps asking you to upgrade your internet explorer..
yay!
-applause-
hahas.
yupp.
should have done it a long time ago but ya..
i was stupid and couldn't find the source
and got the kinda' dun care' attitude..
yupp
but anyway, the point is
the thing is fixed! hahas
yay!
im seriously going mad.
okies.
oral totally sucked.
good night.

..

2005-06-23T23:33:00.000-07:00

depression.
:|
xin zhong hao duo yi wen orh.
have i been misunderstanding everything?
it really was never meant to be.
i dunno. what's happening anymore.
im.
going.
mad.
had a tiff with my mum.
realised how unreasonable a person can be.
well it happened ytd.
in the evening.
i also realised how well i can act.
realisation.
i realise.
it was never there.
i was never there
i will never be there.
i never ever had a place.
a place in your heart.
you're not supposed to understand this.
so dont.

2005-06-20T23:24:00.000-07:00

im just bored.
chalet ROCKED!
hahas
first day went to escape with ying, amy , myra and kemin
hahas quite funny..
the haunted hse arh...
xia dao wo ban tiao ming fei zou le la.
super scary lor.
hahas but like not abit wows from starting to the end all of them screaming like mad..
eardrum burst le la.
den we all cling tgth den like yi dui ren lyydat.
abit at the entrance den start screaming le den cos got this guai ghost in black den i tot it was a statue.. den they all screaming at the ghost..
den all very scared.. cannot move at all..
den bian chen i have to like pull them all the way
den that ghost moved and started howling at us.
super scary la.
the whole haunted hse is like a maze lahh.
bleah.
never gg in AGN.
unless with pple who are not scared.
(:
hmm. den go back to chalet to watch jue dui superstar!
hahhas the class super chao ehh
den the pocky thing. wahlao qt gross only.
ahem ahem.
the beach was. nice. (:
just that got alot of mosquitoes and i got bitten by a weird insect
that is making my arm swell
that makes me have to eat medicine.
bleah
hahas. other than that it was fun.
way beyond fun la.
we watched the sunrise ehh
(:
damn nice.
and i threw rocks. u noe the skipping rock thing.. yepp
quite cheng gong lahh
din sleep for whole night.
den went back to chalet to sleep.
sleep for abt 2h only lah
hahas
and still can cheng until at night 130.
den at night only have 5 pple left.
me ying peiying joanna jocelynw
hahas. played 'silent mode' mahjong.
qt fun lahh
den slept and woke up at 4 plus to see sunrise agn.
den abit started raining..
den like super freakin cold.
hai hao got sweater.. if not surely get cold de lorr.
YOU ah.
*shakes head*
still tui wad sweater harr.
aiyoh.
slept on the bench, in the shelter place and macs.
hahas
went back at abt 8. ying fetch me.
went back and slept.
den still have to go for piano and theory
practically slept thru the whole lesson lahh.
survived.
and went to uncle's hse aft tt
tiring.
and next day got father's day lunch buffet
damn nice lahh
den got zuo tan hui.
damn boring.
went back at abt 630.
slacked thru everything and went to sleep
next day
cut hair.
bought a new piano.
whoohoo
silent piano
now i dun have to get irritated when the baby comes back and i can't practise
den cum back and slacked until now.
-end of story-

..

2005-05-18T00:23:00.000-07:00

hmms. doing nothing now cos got nothing to do.
hahas. quite lame only.. hmms.
ahem ahem. tiao bo li jian...
bleahs.
today was a disgusting day.
i think maybe i got up from the wrong side of the bed or smth..
so irritating la. i hate being yuan wang-ed
grr. anyway even if i denied u wouldn't believe me..
so ya?
what's the point?
u just don't believe me.
btw to those people who dunno wad the hell im talking about..
it's okay cos u dun have to..
okay? dun worry abt me la.
although i think what i post is always quite pesimisstic only..
haiya. just super fan la.
it's true wad. like wth
i try so hard to be like a good friend and everything but i always get nothing in return.
why is it that i always have to give in just to retain the friendship?
why is it always freakin' me.
grr.
if i like dun come to school for week or smth.. it doesn't even matter.
cos nobody will care huh.
NOBODY.
freak la.
so irritated.
im sick AND tired of this.
really tired.

history sux,

2005-05-08T22:51:00.000-07:00

hmm. i think im like super free now. cos i gave up on studying about LENIN who is kinda idiotic. and STALIN who is in love with himself or smth... bleahs. okies. going back to find myself smth else to do..

2005-04-19T23:50:00.000-07:00

i feel worthless.
i feel pathetic.
i am worthless and pathetic.

march holidays finally here...

2005-03-13T15:10:00.000-08:00

hurr..
march holidays here liao..
i dun wanna change place!!
ahh crap.
haiz..
ppr sucks like hell.
humph.
anyway. going out tmr, and tmr tmr and tmr tmr tmr and oso tmr tmr tmr tmr.
hehs.
and //* i never say your huai hua horrr.
wells. nothing to blog.
ciao.

stressed out.

2005-02-19T21:47:00.000-08:00

hurr...
sec3 is so stressful...
like everything single thing u have to do...every single is important la..
u think im robot issit?
even robot oso cannot do la.
grr.
and den stupid class is so unreponsive when it comes to service-learning..
not tt i dun like 3purity, i love our class but i would love you all more if u responded...
see.. VP de xin sheng..
i bet huiying's even more stressed than me...
den still got so many tests..
plus i've to practise violin AND piano
and my stupid teacher keeps bugging me to do theory to pass the exam which is in 4 weeks time.
she teach until like its just in order to pass the test not to learn at all and i hate this kind of teachers.
and she keeps using my piano time to do theory cos SHE think it's more impt when I want piano more...
WHO'S THE ONE LEARNING FOR GOODNESS SAKE!!!!!!!!
grr.
and the stupid five day work week SO stupid have to shift my cca to fri and make my whole week so super packed.
and mum has to arrange 2 days of tuition for me every week.
and the tuition is not like got xian ding shi jian cos the tuition tcher is my cousin.
i want to say the f word but i just refuse to do it.
and the stupid cca thinks tt the stupid first aid course needs so much preparation when there's actually no need for it.
mrs tan thinks tt it's the most impt thing on earth. like what the *toot*
argh.
if all of u tell me tt wadeva u want me to do is the most impt, how am i supposed to do everything!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
im like going to bao zha soon?
gawd.

bleahhs

2005-02-03T07:51:00.000-08:00

in sch's com lab now..
haiya. so boring.
and i dun even noe wad the hell im supposed to do?
hahs. aiyah gtg. byes

dunno

2005-01-12T21:49:00.000-08:00

hahas. so long never blog.
my blog like not abit stagnant larr.
but at least not as stagnant as sai's blog..
3 purity very fun lehh.
the people all very nice.
suddenly dun like going to cca..
like so boring.
den no pt somemore.
irritating larr.
bear shud organise gathering!!!
bear rox.
im hooked on to the bnco camp songs. quite stupid oni larr.
den keep singing in class den everybody question mark question mark.
3 PURITY ROX LARR..

minicomp's over..

2004-12-01T16:20:00.000-08:00

haiya.. minicomp over readi..
today like feel so empty without the training..
haiya. no mood to blog anyway..
and i'd really like to know who is seclusion..

haiya

2004-11-26T02:31:00.000-08:00

aiyah.. keep forgetting to blog..
now im blogging in the middle of the night..
hahas.
i think im scared of bnco..
haiya..
im in the bear grp.. like wows.
im so excited..
been watching yi tian tu long
partly the reason why im blogging so late
yah la..
nothing much to blog about anyway..
being a leader sure isn't easy...
haiz.
im starting tennis lessons this friday!!
quite excited about it..
hahas..
and nessa arhh..
if u happen to read this
id like to ask if u could go cycling with me next sun..
cos im going to pulau ubin to cycle with my brother.. yupp.
and id also like to know who is seclusion?
thanx for saying all tt
i appreciate it..
:)
but it actually wasn't really necessary.

forgive me if there are any typos..
it's late u know..
and im going to slp soon..
yupps.
nites.

2 FAITH

2004-10-29T23:19:00.000-07:00

today is a very mixed feelings day.
okay maybe this will sound abit weird but i cried quite a few times today.
i cried because:
i was so ANGRY with my mum for being an idiot.
i was TOUCHED by the way my mum was talkiong to me bout my results.
i was too HAPPY tt 2faith won the family dance competition.
i was SAD tt 2faith had to part.
i was gonna miss 2 faith ALOT.
i was SAD when listening to the faith cd.
i was SAD when i read aiwei thingy. (so sweet kaes.)

actually tt's about it.
i was generally sad.
sad day.
plus ms keh's leaving.
maybe most pple dun know this.
it was REALLY IMPORTANT to us tt we win this competition.
because faith never won anything.
although we try SO hard everytime, it doesn't work.
but it worked this time.
WE ROCK.
WE STONE.
WE EVERYTHING.
i think our class is really really united.
as in REALLY.
this is probabbly the most bonded class i've been in.
and aiwei cried when they announced the results of the competition.
really really really rare i guess.
knew her since P4 and i've never seen her cry before.
2 FAITH ROX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'll REALLY miss 2 faith
i love 2 faith.

whoo

2004-10-24T17:25:00.000-07:00

erm.. actually i haven't been blogging cause im lazy to blog.
which is quite stupid.
but wadeva.
EOYS ARE OVER.
like finally.
gosh.
and my results are out as well.
and it sucks.
i failed maths.
of all things.. maths.
argh.
dun wanna talk aboutit.
these few days are so boring.
suzy talks, prize giving, and lots of rubbish.
but at least they some sense to at least show us a vcd.
even then it was supposed to be educational.
but it was ok larr.
some NC-16 violence, at least as quoted from jingzhi.
and i slept thru the prize presentation tt day, and im not kidding.
the prefect din even see larr.
watched zhan shen.
i think it rox.
anyway nothing interesting to blog anyway.

gillian
how i noe your blog larr!!!! haiyo. tell me when u tag again.

nessa
i DO NOT like barbie and u noe it. and wadeva. iloveyaloadstoo. pui.

i dun like barbie.

2004-09-28T21:36:00.000-07:00

i really DUN like barbie kaes.

okies.

2004-09-19T22:39:00.000-07:00

since everybody's doing this..

this blog is temporarily closed till the end of the eoys.

i realli need to get down to studying anyway.
i'll also not be coming online.

im so dead.

2004-09-19T22:28:00.000-07:00

i hate studying.
i absolutely hate it.
my results are so bad.
i haven't even had the courage to give my ppr to my mum.
this sucks.
i noe i sound like a wimp or smth.
argh.

:)

2004-09-15T04:20:00.000-07:00

by order of vanessa audris lim, i decided to blog.
bah.
need to study hard nowadays.
eoys cuming.
argh.
i can't seem to concentrate.
haiya.

you want it i want it
everthings a want
we lose it then we say its for fun.
u tink its funny wad im saying is corny
it a warning
heed it or ignore it.
the lin jun jie rap thingy.

happy birthday to meeeeeeeeeee

2004-09-05T20:32:00.000-07:00

my birthday wos funn.
yupps.
in the morn i went to meet sai and ed and gillian at macs.
had breakfast dere and waited a whole half an hour for gillian.
hahas. den sai bought cake before she came and she did quite a bad job of trying to hide it from me.. hahas. quite funny larr.
and den we went to my hse and whiled our time away on the comp and eating cake and playing dodgeball in my rm.
den gillian had to go den me ed and sai went to play bball.
den dere were some pple beside the court when we were playing.
den they joined us after awhile but we had to go after awhile cos zhangyuning wos coming to my hse.
den we rushed back and zhangyuning wos with her friend and they wished me happy birthday.
hahas. cum all the way to say happy bdae and give a blue rose and a few packets of M&Ms.
action appreciated. (((:
den shuyu said she and the shalarhayawa not coming cos need to marinate the chicken.
den okay lor, after a while ed and sai went to meet shuyu to take neoprint.
den i went to the chalet with the beehoon.
and i forgot about the scwewers.
and i only remembered when we were bbq-ing the chicken wings and i actually still said how come dun scwewer the chicken and den they said got no scwewer den i realised i forgot to bring.
great memory i have.
hahas.
okay back to our story.
den i found the whole class in a restaurant in the chalet.
and den went to put the beehoon and my stuff in the chalet.
and i din eat lunch btw.
recieved presents frm pple.
shall tok about tt later.
went with sally vivien vanessa emily jingzhi haining biking.
quite slow larr.
you all like dun like to speed.
and jingzhi fell down and almost crashed into a tree.
and i took the liberty of testing the refixed bike(done by jingzhi and haining)
and we continued biking but din finish the whole biking track.
den we went back and i wos biking wif jingzhi. speed biking.
went to get a drink and met nessa.
and i forgot, when jingzhi crashed, audrey came and almost stole my bike away.
hahas.
den i walked nessa back to the chalet to put her stuff and we returned my bike cos the time was up.
den i biked with her. another hour.
woah. damn fast larr.
but it was damn fun. completed the whole cycling track back AND forth.
so fun.
den i almost crashed into a malay gurl cos she never look den anyhow walk .
den i said F-U-C-K. as in like letter by letter.
den nessa was like french connection united kingdom.
hahas.
and she tot i said FCUK
and she din even noe it was cos of the malay person.
hahas. so funny.
den we started singing.
and den we went back.
den i went with nessa and clarissa to the beach.
saw lots of starfish and discover my talent of being able to throw the skipping stone.
it wos like a science trip or smth.
den i checked my phone.
walao. 11 missed calls.
3 frm ed and 8 frm shuyu.
hahas. den i went to look for them and walked in the wrong direction.
hahas. not funny larr.
den i met the shalarhayawa. erm. minus shuyu.
den i started woking in the correct direction.
and i eventually found them.
den during the search the shalarhayawa minus shuyu wos super hyper.
goodness.
den i got my present.
and den ed went home and we walked her all the way out.
and i walked shuyu back to the chalet.
was damn tired by then.
and the whole class wos waiting for us.
sort of larr.
and we did a surprise item thing for ms tan.
i tink she wos really touched.
and den we went to eat bbq and ms tan wos like you look really tired. like quite alot of times..
and i din really eat.
and rachel suddenly asked the whole class the sing happy birthday for me.
den i was like omg.
and i was damn erm..shy?
and my face started going quite hot.
oh man..
and den i decided to try my bee hoon.
den i asked cheryl for her fork.
and den she wos like wait wait.
den i was like okay.
den suddenly the shalarhayawa came and like surrounded me.
den they were like happy birhtday and den cheryl gave me the plate of food she wos holding.
quite sweet larr. hahas.
den they sang this thingy and they din want to sing it in front of the class so they went to another chalet thing and den when they were halfway thru the pple tt were in tt chalet came back and it wos damn funny. den they went to another place not far away from our class.
i tink its like this:
1,2,3,4
jinan jinan is the best
5,6,7,8,
jinan jinan beats the rest
why did we piss her off
cos the chicken need some sauce
sorry sorry we are wrong
and i forgot wad's the last line.

yupp and the whole class was like awwwwwwwwww.
hahas.
den i couldn't finish my food.
and i went ard asking pple to eat.
hahas.
quite dumb.
threw away the food in the end.
i went to bathe and wore the shirt ed and sai got for me.
and ms tan said it looked sweet.
den i was like um.
hahas.
ms tan wos quite nice during the bbq lehh.
den i went with rachel for a walk.
wad happened is not gonna be told and shuyu pls dun hu si luan xiang.
den by the time we went back it wos quite late and audrey stella and cheryl wos getting ready to slp and cristal was slping on the bed.
den i took the other side of the bed.
den cristal woke up and the three of them almost kicked me off the bed when they got on the bed.
then they were so chao.
cannot sleep eh.
den they went down and i got peace for awhile but decided to go down.
den they were playing truth or dare.
den when audrey stella cheryl came back we moved upstairs and the rest f the games were quite boring.
and we started sleeping.
den i decided to join the others playing card games downstairs.
den i tink at about 3?
i got ms tan to go up to slp.
and den gave up sleeping next to her.
went down to play cards for awhile and went up to check out the rm.
vivien woke up and i took her place.
unfortunately sleeping beside shuyu.
hahas.
slept till about 7 plus?
2 hours larr.
had cup noodles for breakfast
and shuyu refused to eat.
feed oso dun wan.
was nothing interesting larr.
went home and on the way went to pick my aunt up. where i got my present from my couz.
and i went home and slept frm 9 plus to about 3.
beauty sleep.
hahas.
okay so on to the presents and acknowledgements

Mummee and Daddee
THANK YOU!! for the mp3 and beehoon and sending me to the chalet..
and making sept1 my bdae. making a wonderful day.
Sis
THANX for the 100 bucks!
2 Faith
THANX for the nice chalet and the birthday song. and the lotsa stuff on the class outing
ed sai gillian
THANX for coming to my hse and the dodgeball wos funn. and the cake too.
and ed and sai, THANX for the present. PINK shirt frm DCP. obviously chosen by shuyu.
shalarhayawa
THANX for your 'item'. wahahas.
it was really erm.. touching.
yupp.
THANX AGAIN!!!
and the baaboon. it's a bungee monkey thingy btw.
zhangyuning
THANX for coming in such a hot weather to say happy bdae and gimme the M&Ms plus the blue rose. and your fren too.
nessa
THANX for biking with me. it was really funn. and oso for the many hugs and for being a pain in the ass sometimes and a loveable sweetie at times. wahahas. your head dun grow too big hor.
and yala wadeva. i love nessa. so mianqiang-ly said.
vivien and vanessa sum
THANX for the CUTE puppy i LOVE it!!!!!!!!!!
it's lying on my bed now.
emily sally jingzhi haining
THANX for biking with me for an hour. and for the gift, a cute little soft toy tt says happy birthday on it.
rachel
THANX! for the pencil case. though it may not be much, its still chengyi. thanx a million.
and oso for being dere.
thanx alot. i really needed someone ard.
the person next to our chalet tt has the same bdae as me
THANX for your cake which u so generously gave us a protion of it. and oso for wishing me happy bdae.
fav couz
THANX for the markers. it was immediately put to use. hahas.
my 'ah yi'
THANX for the lin jun jie cd. it's a really nice cd. i lurve it.
everyone who wished me happy bdae
THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

1st sept..

2004-08-30T20:02:00.000-07:00

haiya.
juz finish praying to the hungry ghosts.
hahas
damn hot.
i dun really feel excited about my bdae.
dunno why oso.
booo.
looking forward to wednesday..
(((:
tt's all folks!

P.S. for the courtesy of other pple..
here's my wishlist again..
- a nice big cuddly soft toy!!! hahas
- nice shirt
- nice slingbag
- a nice piece of cheng yi will do.
((((((:

rox.

2004-08-27T19:24:00.000-07:00

zhangyuning! happy bdae!

somehow i dun feel so excited about my bdae.
i dunno why.
oh wells.
tmr got flag day.
shall go to novena.
how fun!!
-_-ll
so it WAS a misunderstanding.
so sorry for being angry.
hahas.
i tink i flunked the test.
bleahs.

um

2004-08-26T20:13:00.000-07:00

im pissed.
really pissed.
i shudn't be pissed cos afterall it IS my fault.
but im still pissed.
okay.
so i ponned fd once.
the only one time with the sec3s.
at least without a reason.
i mean.. come on.
it's not tt i hate doing pumps or anything.
but isn't it abit unfair?
like HELLO?
i dun see daphne tham coming to fd sessions as often as i do?
and 50 pumps is SO not equivalent to 1 round?
im sorry, but im pissed.
im sorry about the not coming for fd thing.
i wasn't really intent on reminding myself about.. stuff.

wadeva

2004-08-26T18:12:00.000-07:00

YOU suck.
YOU are a fucking bitch.
YOU, just get out of my life.
YOU are getting on my nerves.

i hate YOU.

in the sch comp lab.

2004-08-25T00:10:00.000-07:00

me in the sch comp lab nows..
dun feel like going home..
dunno why.
and im bored.
shud start playing some games..
yupp..
haiz.
so many pple in class got the 'ok' for the njc IP..
kiongs.
juz finished oral.
i tink i screwd it up.
and i tink it's tt way even more when i discussed with aiwei.
oh man.
i tink i need to start being guai.
shit.
imagine guai me?
hahahs.
it exactly 1 week to my bdae!!
yay!
hahas.
lame

Ooo.

2004-08-18T19:36:00.000-07:00

hahas.
im happy today.
good mood i guess..
:)
i din study i single thing for lit.
whoo.
hahas
and i slept at 830 yesterday.
not funny larr.
i accidentally slept.
and nobody come and wake me up sumore.
hahas.
then i slept until 630 in the morn.
such solid sleep.
hahas
and the result was..
i din sleep during maths today.
for once lar.
hahas
ed came to my hse to play comp games.
hahas
quite fun larr.
(to other pple: pls dun go and tok rubbish about the above)
hahas
:P
what am i doing?
bloging here..
im supposed to be studying MEP larr.
so i shall stop blogging.
ciao

boo

2004-08-16T00:48:00.000-07:00

couz came back!!
first time i saw her in i tink a year?
hahas
it was qt funn
my grp's situation's improving?
hahas
i tink at least.
my burfday's coming!!
yay!!

wishlist:
- a nice big cuddly soft toy!!! hahas
- nice shirt
- nice slingbag
- a nice piece of cheng yi will do.

hahas.
not a bit thick skinned
i tink my throat recovered!!
fully!!
yay!
i mite pass BFA wif a stroke of luck.
yupp.
my neighbour there's this old man.
then he fell the other day. then he's in the hospital.
then like i tink it's qt serious?
then the son frm australlia came back.
then he wos juz toking to my mum.
then i was juz standing dere listening to them tok..
the guy wos so emotional.
he wos almost going to tears..
it wos like so real.
so.. genuine.
i almost cried too.
he wos talking about how he came back then he rushed straight to the hospital.
and he talked to his dad and his dad open his eyes juz to see him when he din open his eyes for the few days.
i tink it's cerebral compression.
cos there's a blood clot in the brain or smth..
hahas. me being a smart aleck.
i tot these thing oni happened in drama series.
i never tot it was like dat in real life.
it's so sad.
oh wells.
nites.
it's getting late.

ok

2004-08-11T19:45:00.000-07:00

ok.
so cheryl's my assistant leader.
she dun like me!! but i dun dun like her lehh.
aiyah i oso dunno wad to think larr.
and cannot blog too much about it oso.
later she read den i die larr!
den my sec1s very unenthu.. even the other sec1s hear readi oso like 'good luck' lorr.
grr. why can't i juz be assistant leader larr.
irritating.
i hate me.
such a failure at making friends?
why can't i be myself?
bahh.
i do things without thinking of the consequences.
f***
and why do i always screw frinedships up?
it's always me.
ahh. wadeva..
blog another day.

..

2004-07-29T17:48:00.000-07:00

we got double champ!!!!!!!!! woohoo.
towards the end when we were singing ai wo ai wo shen ni ge la
i zaoxia-ed. or rather i was monotone.
and i got sorethroat. running nose and cough all in one night.
whoo.
dat's why today i never do fd.
oh wells.
can't time anyway.. OR command
and today announce the minicomp grpings..
but i gtg ..
blog again mebbe later
:)

Dee dAa Dum Sole U eXcited

2004-07-27T22:07:00.000-07:00

gosh. my dad sux so much sometimes u noe
he's so irritating.
it's like i dunno how to say larr.
his temper gets in his way.
and i hate it.
i can't wait fer tmr!!!!
i want to cheer!!
it's gonna be like damn fun!
hahas
oh yah.
yest got violin exam rite..
i tot it wos okay larr.
i think shud be can pass one larr.
cos the examiner is a guy.
den usually more lenient marr.
:))
hahas.
im quite sick of sch.
it's like damn like a routine kinda thing
and it's like... damn irritating.
oh wells.
nothing to blog abt liao

'ello

2004-07-26T20:00:00.000-07:00

today got violin exam. den i got to leave chinese early!!
dun haf to see his stupid face.
i think shud be can pass larr. i think.
den after tt i felt damn relaxed lehh. hahas.
mum bought piano book for me!!
$27 kaes..
not ex oni larr.
today ms tan DAMN irritating lehhs.
it wos like during assembly.. den u noe tchers owaes wok ard one..
den she stopped rite in front of me and den like looked at me suspiciously.
den i wos looking at her, thinking why she looked at me lyydat larr
den after tt she like look at me then said ' stand behind the line'
like errrs. den i said out loud ' tt's quite...'
den she like looked back at me and said like 'ey!'
den i wos like 'okok sorry!'
like wadeva larr.
stupid bitch.
she just wanted to pick on me and like try and find some fault in me larr!!!!!!!
wtf.
grr. damn pissed wif her.
haiya.
tmr got chinese test.
haven study yet. :(

mei mei jie jie :) (fav couz):
the vjc thing is the thru train programme which is like dun need to take o levels kinda thing. can understand? :)

wadeva

2004-07-25T23:34:00.000-07:00

oh ya.
those pple who tag my blog:
can u do me a favor by leaving ur blog if u wan me to link u. if i link readi of cos dun need larr. okies? hahas. thnx

sai:
u wan me to rite fer u so i rite larr. abit ur eileen larr. *rolls eyes* hahas. err. stay shitty larr. hahas. okay? enuff liao lar. byes

lima:
you're sooo not the nicest larr. I AM wad. ben eh u. hahahahas. and im not baaboon!!!

baa

2004-07-25T23:25:00.000-07:00

shit larr.
tmr got violin exam.
argh. and im not even good at the stoopid songs.
not die oni.
the vjc thing wos... a horrible disaster.
at least the maths part. it totally sucked.
i cudn't rmb any of the formulaes or whatsoever.
dun think i'll get in for the interview
haiya.
i really want to get in.
reasons:
1. im sick of st.nick's environment
2. as well as the canteen food
3. i need to getaway frm smth.
4. i dun wan to take the Os
5. theres bball cca dere.

things tt i can't leave behind:
1. snsj.
2. two faith
3. all my frens. gud frens. best frens. everything.

haiya.
may not get in anyway.
hahas.
im tired liao.
ciao.

bleahs

2004-07-23T23:17:00.000-07:00

today went to see gym girls
but i din see the results. :(
go gym gurls!!!
tired.
ms lai is getting more and more and more irritating.
she and her stoopid pronunciation and eye blinking.
nothing to blog liao. bleahs.
i hate the mrt.

chenji
u wan me to rite so i rite msg for you larr. see i sooo nice. aiyah. u angry wif sai issit? dun be larr. jiayou in your assistant cpbs and fd roles kaes? :)

dunno.

2004-07-22T22:07:00.000-07:00

haiya.
today so tired. my eyes are like half closed? bleahs..
i wanna noe my minicomp grp!!!!
and i dun wanna be leader!
i shudn't haf timed and commanded so loudly todae during fd. damn.
sai's gonna be leader larr. quite obvious. hahas.
haiya. i hate su dong po. stoopid idiot. he juz sux larr. keep picking on me can? wtf. and why me in the first place? stupid asshole. and im in his stupid 'hei ming dan'. like wtf? he's just a pile of shit. (no offence on sai)
lousy idiot.
im very very very very confused at the moment.
i hate complicated stuff.
grr.
tmr got the gym thing. our class going to see.
erm.. of all things gym? okkaaayyy. no offence.
geez. sumtimes i feel like a nut.

cha gan yan lei shuo shen zai jian dou shi cheng zhang de dai jia

'to:'s

2004-07-18T13:47:00.000-07:00

i forgot to add this in yesterday.

caiyilin
oic!! hahas. congrats!!

vanns
dun cry le. crying makes people unphotogenic. :)

sec 4s
MISS YOU! LOVE YOU!

sec 3s
great POP!! gd luck on controling US!! hahas.

squadmates
dun cry kaes? now the photos we took look sad.. :(

sec 1s
hahas. your item nicer than ours!!! :( but it's ok larr.. you all abit kong bu only larr. hahas. and can we stop this squad feud thing? :l

okay.. i think tt's it... ciao.

POP

2004-07-17T20:49:00.000-07:00

today wos POP.
super sad can?.
how i wish i could freeze time . make POP not come.
but it's over. and im really sad about it. really.
the water games wos probabbly the funnest water games i've played
juz take your own plastic bag, fill with water, tie abit and go out and throw at people, prefabbly the seniors. quite funny larr.
the sec 1s item wos surprisingly touching. besides the zaoxia-ness.. sai cried leh. how rare. i cried a bit.
the sec 4s 'item' quite funny. it was nice.
our item quite i dunno how to say larr.. i abit not extra only. stand there and stone larrr. hahas
the parade wos.. quite okay larr. i think. timing quite loud. not bad
some postings were quite unexpected. yupp.
den got interaction. all the presents came in.
den oic made a speech kinda thing. den everybody cry. so sad. sec 2 squad so solemn u noe.
i'll miss all of you.
i really will.
it's like this emptiness in my heart.
i'll miss you.

baa.

2004-07-16T16:45:00.000-07:00

today stay back to do the sj thing. den to stoopid xiao gong come in and scold us. dunno wad she toking oso.. not lame larr.
why today so many pple sad.. make me oso so sad.. :(
it's tmr ..
POP is tmr!!
:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(
chao sad.
haiya. :(
later going to play tennis with sai. yay! hahas.my first time on the tennis court larr.

shuyu:(aiyah not as if she gonna read.. but wadeva)
dun be sad kaes? cheer up and smile always!! :)

no title

2004-07-14T03:40:00.000-07:00

okay. i juz suck at making blogs..really!! i dun even know wad the hell is html.. gawd.